Hi **in teeny weeny font**
It has been a long time since I’ve blogged. Work is busy, kids are in school, Heath and I are coaching soccer, our family is planting a church with the Sweivens, the Kruchels, the Webers and so on and so on. I guess life just gets in the way of my blogging.
…But I have been pondering much lately. I’ve been thinking about my father, the Church, the Lord, my life, and other things. You know how you know that you are meant for so much more in life? I don’t mean working hard for more money, or acquiring cool cars and gadgets. I’m not talking about a mid-life-crisis, and I am not even talking about church planting or ministry. I mean you and God. God and me. I’ve always lived my faith through others…my dad…my husband, and of course in the end I am disappointed, but I have come to this huge discovery which isn’t that new really. I’ve discovered that all things I do or have done or will do will mean nothing in the end if God isn’t present in MY life. The church will always disappoint me and so will the people (just as I will be a disappointment to others), but the church isn’t perfect, neither are the Lord’s people, we are all sinners and none of us are without sin. The only one who can deliver me is the Lord, not the church, not faithless acts of kindness, not my husband, not my children, not my job or house or car.
Well, I’m sorry for the soapbox. I’ve had no outlet for some time because of my busy life. Forgive me please.
September 24th, 2006 at 7:08 pm
i’ve had alot of the same things running through my head lately….i’ve been contemplating alot about my life too……i feel such a pull to do something…anything for god just to know i’m being used, but for some reason i feel like i’m in this weird holding pattern…..i guess i didn’t appreciate full-time ministry like i should have……it’s just tough to see my husband come home from a physically demanding job and even consider getting involved in any ministries right now….selfish? i don’t know…………hey, i’m sorry for the soapbox too…….just some mixed up thoughts…….
September 24th, 2006 at 10:44 pm
GLad to see you thinking out here again. I’ve been wondering where you were!
We’re headed to London tomorrow! Yippeee!
September 25th, 2006 at 12:20 am
Have fun in London, Deana! Take lots of pictures! I’m really excited for you. I have a lot of reading and looking at pictures to do over on your blog. I’ll catch up! I’ll catch up!
Hi Jen! It is nice hear from you!! I know what you mean about the “holding pattern”. I often feel like that, too.
Thanks you guys. It is nice to see your avitars again!
September 25th, 2006 at 9:46 pm
thank you for setting up our wireless port - you are super cute and I love you!
September 28th, 2006 at 2:50 am
Forgiveness denied.